Monday, April 23, 2012

What Do Druids Do?

Ever on my quest to find my path, only seem to find myself more lost than found most of the time.
I don't really know "where I belong". I'm not a Druid (yet), and then which do you chose as there are many groups. I'm a seeker of the Mists. Yet I feel drawn to Elves and Faeries. Even then occasional attraction to say Buddah, Ganesha, Artemis, I could go on.

I was in a private FB group that studies Avalon. But I was removed at the end of a year since I did not complete 2 tasks, which all year long I thought were merely optional. I found myself running around from store to store looking for supplies to complete these 2 things, only to find that one of the parts I bought wasn't going to be sufficient. I was slightly upset by it, but I didn't have time to run around anymore to find the correct piece I needed.

I am still part of the social group for it. Recently the some questions were asked of the group owner I guess about rituals and such. She briefly explained that the group doesn't "call quarters" or "cast circles" stating they were Wiccan or Druid things. Now I'm not saying that's wrong because I know those are Wiccan practices.

But what about the Druids? So far in my meager studying, I haven't seen anything that says that Druids do these things. I don't feel comfortable questioning this in the group. I can't find any books yet locally to read up on it and even if I did find them, I don't have the means to purchase them right now. Hoping to have access to the library soon, but that will still take a couple of weeks at best to get over there. And then who knows if they will have what I need.

Anyone out there know from experience if it is a common practice of Druids to call quarters or cast circles? What about using ritual tools?

Thursday, March 15, 2012

How About An Update? Yes?

I know it's been a long while again since I've posted here. I really don't quite know what I wish to do with this blog. Part of me wants to keep it and part of me wants to merge it with my main blog.

I feel like I am stuck at a crossroads with what path to follow. There's that part of me that is strongly drawn to the Avalon path. I was hoping to read "Avalon Within" by Jhenah Telyndru. A while back, I actually won a copy of the book. I was thrilled and excited. I couldn't wait to get it in my hands and read it. BUT then...I never received it! I contacted the sender who explained what happened and told it would be sent. And....still didn't get it. I've tried a few more times to contact the person, but I guess the emails got lost. So I don't know what ever happened to it. It makes me sad because I really want to read this and I can't afford to go buy a copy. So when I won it, I thought it was a clear sign that the Universe had spoken and said YES! This what you need to seek.
Then I'm still greatly drawn to Druidism. As well as being a Green/Hedge Witch. I'm more drawn to following the Goddess than a God, but I know one cannot exist without the other at least in my opinion. It could be too that my aversion to following a god is just due to my years in Christianity, where god rules and controls everything...the it's a man's world mentality and I should be the silent and submissive woman. And honestly I don't know how to just sit quiet and meditate on this. It would be really nice if I could find a way to blend it all.

So moving right along....It's now been 9 months since I moved 2200 miles to follow my heart. Slowly I've been rebuilding myself, healing, reconnecting with my Beloved (and things are going well with us), and learning what it's like to be accepted and a sense of belonging. I miss my girls terribly, and I wish they had chosen to come too. But it is what it is, for now. And maybe one day, my girls will decide to join me. The only thing left to do is file for a divorce which I am researching but I don't know how easy it's going to be and I still need to have money to do it. And also to figure if and how to get the things that I left behind.

Still things to think about and do, but everything in time. But I'm in a better place than I was a year ago spiritually, emotionally.